Late September 2009, I began a series of e-mails to Bhapuji Tisziji Muñoz as a part of my spiritual practice. I was asked to address my life’s search for healing and happiness, from my earliest memories of childhood to the first time I was close to the presence of this Living Master, how family karma was a necessary knockout and suffering, leading to a return for ultimate healing and never-ending progression. Obviously, my memories are tainted by ego and culture for good and bad, but Bhapu has always, with great divine humor and creative intelligence, been, and is, persistent and patient in my need to put a clear perspective to how I got to his doorstep to begin with over thirty years ago, and why I am here now to practice. I wish to share with you the most representative of those e-mails, reflecting the precious time I have been allowed to have again in Bhapu’s company. —Ellen (Virmananda) Gilley